There have been so many things going on over the past few weeks that I guess I've had trouble coalescing my thoughts into something "blogworthy"-that being said, there has been something that has been bothering me for some time now.
Mainly: that I don't feel like being touched.
More to the point, I don't feel like getting, you know, intimate.
My sweet loving understanding wonderful husband is having a hard time with this. And I don't blame him! His stupid friends have been telling him that he should have known all along: Marriage=No Sexy Time. Or at the least less and less and less sexy time.
I don't want him to think that its him. Because its not! I just don't want to. I know its cliche, but I'm tired and I have a headache. I'm more than willing to cuddle, but mostly I just want to sleep.
To be honest the idea usually makes me a little sick to my stomach. How weird is that?
I feel better in the mornings ("morning sickness" is SUCH a misnomer) but we usually have so much going in that it feels like work to try to fit in a little "us" time.
Plus now it hurts sometimes, and I find myself feeling all protective and mama bear-ish. I know its normal and healthy to have sex when you're pregnant, but I just feel so off all of the time.
It makes me feel so horrible! In fact I'm crying a little bit while I write this (but that's not really news, as I'm pretty much a walking puddle these days).
I just feel so bad for Brandon. It has got to be hard dealing with the crazy woman that I have become. He never (ever) says anything to make me feel bad, but I can just tell that he's disappointed.
Maybe I should buy him some porn?